I’m watching the West Ham v West Brom match with my dad. There are few things better than hearing someone with an accent as English as his pronounce Dutch names.


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I think the pretty bird I saw outside has every bit as much to do with the discussion on race as the various other issues I raised on that idiotic post did (that is to say, they are all equally irrelevant), and it was arrogant to detract from a discussion that is so sorely needed.

I appreciate that others have taken the time to point out my errors. I wish that I hadn’t said anything hurtful, as no personal lesson is worth hurting others.

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Addendum to the Racefail post and an apology.

Please, if I’ve said anything offensive/clueless, and you are willing to take the time to help someone you don’t know on teh interwebz, let me know and point out what it was. I don’t want to be a Clueless White Chick, or Clueless Straight Chick, or Clueless in general.

I’m trying to become aware of the stupidity that my own privilege is resulting in. I hate the idea that my ignorance could lead to other people being offended or hurt.

Also, to clarify, the ‘mess’ that I was referring to was referring to the name-calling, the disrespect, and general flip-flopping and flailing going on. There have been a number of posts that really made me open my eyes and realise how damned ignorant I’ve been, but there have also been plenty of posts that made my mind boggle.

ETA: I realise now how incredibly me-centric my previous post was. Unfortunately, it took someone else pointing it out for me to see that. It just goes to show how bloody ignorant I am, despite my hopes that I had at least  a smidgen of insight. 

I even mentioned people making it about themselves. Big fail on my part.

It was also pointed out that I didn’t make any clear reference to RF for people who haven’t been following it. I use the link list complied by rydra_wong here.

The post that pointed out how egocentric and essentially stupid my post was may well be the most important thing I’ll ever read. I really did think I had a grip on the subject, but I made it about me, and put my foot in my mouth on a massive scale. If I’ve upset or offended anyone, I’m sorry.

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Fixated? Me? NEVAR.

Currently writing something that is not cheery in the slightest. It’s inspired by last semester’s Philology course and reading lots and lots of stories about arcane books.

It is not funny, it is not poignant, it is not heartwarming. It might make a vague point about how women were treated a few hundred years ago. It  has an unlikely friendship. It has insanity. It has an introductory note from someone who stumbled upon the odd manuscript.

Hopefully Pseudopod will reject this for something other than incessant cheeriness. I think this is about as close to straight horror that I’m ever going to get.


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Oh, Stephen King

Whenever your name comes up, there’s the invariable ‘omg he sux now’ comment, and I have always defended you. I have attempted to point out that although your earlier work might have been more satisfying to true blue horror buffs, your post-accident work has been much deeper and ultimately more satisfying on a more general level. There is still horror, but it is of a subtler sort.

And hey, there’s still monsters. Just look at Lisey’s Story.

Oh, and I always make sure to say how much I love your short stories. I do. I love them. Everything’s Eventual was a bit on the sketchy side, but there was still enough to love.

Then you go and give us Just After Sunset.

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RaceFail and assorted interweb fuckbiscuitery

Sooo, RaceFail. Maybe you’ve heard of it, maybe you haven’t. In a nutshell, it’s a huge debate going on, mostly on LJ, between people involved in SF/F. It seems to have turned into an industry vs fans thing, but I’ve given up trying to label it. 

It started off being just about ‘writing the other’, then it turned into a giant mess with valuable bits of insight here and there. Mostly it’s just a mess, though.

I’ve been wanting to post about it for a while. It started in January, and it’s still going on. For a long time, I wasn’t sure what to say. Racism is bad? Duh. Racism is really bad and it sucks that half the time, people don’t even realise they’re discriminating? That’s better, but it’s still got a worryingly high duh-quotient.

What really opened my eyes was an entirely different debate I got involved in. It was regarding mental issues, and I got extremely angry. I hardly ever get angry nowadays, so yeah, this is something that really gets under my skin. 

The part of the discussion that really opened my eyes, was when someone tried to equate the suffering of someone with these issues to that of someone without these issues. Of course, these people can suffer the same amounts, but not in the same way. I didn’t feel I was able to make that clear to other people.

Then it dawned on me. That’s exactly the point that I wasn’t getting in the whole RaceFail thing. 

There were plenty of posts and comments in that giant crumbly fuckbiscuit that essentially came down to, ‘Hey POC, stop whining because other people suffer too’. Sure, other people suffer too. There’s a whole lot of suffering in the world, and it’s not limited to people of a specific ethnicity.

But you know what? If you’ve got the privilege of being white, you’re never going to know what POC feel when they’re discriminated against just because they don’t look white enough. You might have experiences that are just as awful, but they won’t be that experience.

With that realisation came another: this is what was meant when people said that some individuals were trying to make it about themselves. The discussion is about people not being treated with respect, it’s not a competition to see who’s suffered most. It’s about combating discrimination, not trying to tell those who feel discriminated against to stfu because omg, this privileged person has suffered way more than you.

Because of how I felt last night, I’ve become extremely aware of my own privilege, as a straight white woman living in a Western country. I think that’s an extremely important step towards becoming a fairer person. When you have the privileges I do, it’s easy to forget that hey, there are people with different experiences, and not everyone has it as easy as this. 

If there’s one thing I can’t stand, it’s ignorance, especially when I’m the one guilty of it.

ETA: I’ve made it about me, I’m an idiot. My apologies to anyone I may have offended with this short-sighted and frankly stupid post.


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Scream and dance

Not since The Rocky Horror Picture Show has a movie made me want to do these two things in such quick succession.

I’m usually not one to like hyped movies, but Slumdog Millionaire was fantastic. Go see it. 


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